God sent me to the wilderness, to Argyle in 1972, to be tempted of the devil as Jesus was led into the wilderness and tempted. God put me there and he taught me to pray.
I left everything that I owned at the direction of God in 1970 and drove away, not know where I was going. No man or no woman knew anything about what I was doing; only God. I obeyed him. I heard his voice. I did what he told me to do.
I had many doubts but I survived those years, telling myself and Patti and Kathy, if I missed God, I’ll build again. I knew I could. I knew I would. I had that kind of confidence and courage. I also thought I knew God was with me, that God had ordered my steps. I studied day and night. I prayed many hours in the night time because I didn't want to fail. I never failed in my life and I didn't want to start.
God led me to 2 Samuel 7. He talked to me. He said He was doing with me what he did with David. I couldn't comprehend that.
1 And it came to pass, when the king sat in his house, and the Lord had given him rest round about from all his enemies;
2 That the king said unto Nathan the prophet, See now, I dwell in an house of cedar, but the ark of God dwelleth within curtains.
3 And Nathan said to the king, Go, do all that is in thine heart; for the Lord is with thee.
4 And it came to pass that night, that the word of the Lord came unto Nathan, saying,
5 Go and tell my servant David, Thus saith the Lord, Shalt thou build me an house for me to dwell in?
6 Whereas I have not dwelt in any house since the time that I brought up the children of Israel out of Egypt, even to this day, but have walked in a tent and in a tabernacle.
God walked in a tent and in a tabernacle. Isn't that incredible? Do you see how God will humble himself to get down on our level?
7 In all the places wherein I have walked with all the children of Israel spake I a word with any of the tribes of Israel, whom I commanded to feed my people Israel, saying, Why build ye not me an house of cedar?
8 Now therefore so shalt thou say unto my servant David, Thus saith the Lord of hosts, I took thee from the sheepcote, from following the sheep, to be ruler over my people, over Israel:
9 And I was with thee whithersoever thou wentest, and have cut off all thine enemies out of thy sight, and have made thee a great name, like unto the name of the great men that are in the earth.
10 Moreover I will appoint a place for my people Israel, and will plant them, that they may dwell in a place of their own, and move no more; neither shall the children of wickedness afflict them any more, as beforetime,
11 And as since the time that I commanded judges to be over my people Israel, and have caused thee to rest from all thine enemies. Also the Lord telleth thee that he will make thee an house.
12 And when thy days be fulfilled, and thou shalt sleep with thy fathers, I will set up thy seed after thee, which shall proceed out of thy bowels, and I will establish his kingdom.
13 He shall build an house for my name, and I will stablish the throne of his kingdom for ever.
14 I will be his father, and he shall be my son. If he commit iniquity, I will chasten him with the rod of men, and with the stripes of the children of men:
Notice here, God said of Solomon, “If he does iniquity, I will chasten (correct) him…” You see, people don’t believe that God’s people should be corrected, but God corrects us all.
15 But my mercy shall not depart away from him, as I took it from Saul, whom I put away before thee.
He also said his mercy would not leave Solomon. God told me, “because you have obeyed me, my mercy will never depart from your house.” That’s why I survived everything and those that walk me are part of this house.
16 And thine house and thy kingdom shall be established for ever before thee: thy throne shall be established for ever.
17 According to all these words, and according to all this vision, so did Nathan speak unto David.
18 Then went king David in, and sat before the Lord, and he said, Who am I, O Lord God? and what is my house, that thou hast brought me hitherto?
19 And this was yet a small thing in thy sight, O Lord God; but thou hast spoken also of thy servant's house for a great while to come. And is this the manner of man, O Lord God?
20 And what can David say more unto thee? for thou, Lord God, knowest thy servant.
21 For thy word's sake, and according to thine own heart, hast thou done all these great things, to make thy servant know them.
22 Wherefore thou art great, O Lord God: for there is none like thee, neither is there any God beside thee, according to all that we have heard with our ears.
23 And what one nation in the earth is like thy people, even like Israel, whom God went to redeem for a people to himself, and to make him a name, and to do for you great things and terrible, for thy land, before thy people, which thou redeemedst to thee from Egypt, from the nations and their gods?
24 For thou hast confirmed to thyself thy people Israel to be a people unto thee for ever: and thou, Lord, art become their God.
25 And now, O Lord God, the word that thou hast spoken concerning thy servant, and concerning his house, establish it for ever, and do as thou hast said.
God ministered this all to me, convinced me, that I like David, had a ministry that endured forever. The words he spoke, amazed me. Just as King David said, “Who am I O Lord God?” those were my thoughts, “Who am I Lord?” Even today it’s still difficult for me to talk about but it’s coming out.
I prayed verse 25 hundreds of times, assured that what God was saying, He was going to do for me. It was in my heart. To me, it was arrogant. But I was used to being arrogant. To me, it was egotistical. But I was used to being egotistical. I had a lot of confidence in what I could do and I didn't back down from anybody. So, that prayer seemed right to pray. I knew that David was taken from the sheepfold and I was taken from following the animals as a veterinarian, primarily horses and cattle, but specializing in horses. I thought, “Why not? Why couldn't this be me?” Do you know who was convincing me of that? God! It sure wasn't me.
“Establish what God had said to me forever.” I chose to be a fool. After all, nobody's going to know I'm a fool but God for praying this. I was crazy enough to believe this was God, because I knew that God had told me to sell out, no man or no woman, but God. He had proven things to me by this time. That's why I knew I could pray this prayer. I prayed it for about a year, fervently.
Now, I'm bold enough to tell you that what God had said to me in Argyle, he has brought it to pass today in Plano, in America and the world. I prayed that prayer. I got bold—I got real bold. If you put my back against the wall and I get desperate enough, I'll pray. In Argyle, I thought, “If God kills me, I'd be better off. Surely, I'd get to go to heaven.” It was difficult for me to believe that God would do a man that way.
At one point I said to the Lord, “I don’t know how much more of this I can stand,” and the Lord said, “Shut-up. You don’t know how much you can stand.”
But you know what? it came through. It came through—out of Argyle, out of Carrollton, back to McKinney. The day God told me to go back to McKinney in April of 1977, I was confident that I had been following God; I had proof.
Today I remain confident that I am following God, my proof is the fruit God is bringing forth.
I’ve have asked Kathryn to post this. there are more things that must be brought forth by the Spirit but at this time I cannot bring forth any more; but I would like you to listen to this song done by Terre Brown, Who Am I?
Servant and apostle of the Lord Jesus Christ